"Seems like some things just aren't the same."
Friday, January 2, 2009
Mood: Bad.Music: Tongue Tied - Faber Drive
Book: Message In A Bottle - Nicholas Sparks (Draggy. If it weren't for the twist in the ending, i wouldn't even bother sticking with it for THIS long. FYI, his novels ALWAYS have nice endings, endings which i look forward to reading. But, the first few chapters ALWAYS suck and have NEVER been able to captivate my attention. He's like.... Shakespeare the 2nd. A.K.A., crappy old man.)
Like any other year, i didn't sleep a wink yesterday. So i just played on my bed till 6.45 or so, then rushed out of the house for school. (That's how i ended up sending Abigail a birthday message at 4 plus in the morning. Looool. And yes, HAPPY BIRTHDAY ABBY! :D)
First day of school was... chaotic. Everything was in a mess. No, not mess, more like this hugeeeee uncontrollable blur :o But okay, we all survived through. Yay, oh-leh. So, none of my Sec 1/2 teachers are teaching us anymore... which is super sad. I had expected Ms Goh to be teaching us Maths, cus she sounded as if she was. But sadly, Ms Koh got the job. First impression: Humorous teacher, in a bimbotic auntie kind of way. HA HA HA! I'm serious! The way she talks, and expresses herself, and the way her hand flies about in all the different direction while she speaks.... super funnaye!
Mmm hmm. So, some people said i look very strangled in my tie, some said i look just fine, others said i don't look like me. OH, here's a nice one: people even had comments about my feet. HAHA. They all said my feet are [quote] damn mini [unquote]. LOLL. Seriously, that's crap. Cus i'm wearing a freaking Size 4, which is rather hugeeee, HELLO?o.o Chern Wei even said something about it being as small as his [quote] primary school feet [unquote].... HAHA.
Oh well, i had a nice time seeing all my friends in school. It's been a long time since i've seen them! Some changed a little (in terms of character and looks), while others are still the same as before, if my memory doesn't fail me (tsk tsk).
I gotta admit, I fell asleep for a short teeny tiny while during the OBS talk (which was, honestly, very boring and redundant. Like, seriously, why would i wanna know who founded OBS, and what's the history of OBS...?? It's just a camp all Sec3 gotta go through, for goodness sake!), from which Meiyi woke me up by nudging my jaws really hard (ouch!). I forgot what a good partner she makes... Haha. Xingbo was fine too, don't get me wrong. But he NEVER, EVER wakes me up when i accidentally fall asleep during lessons. It's not like i got into trouble with the teachers because of that. But come on lah, waking your partners up when they fall asleep from boredom is like, an unsaid MUST-do. Duh!
Oh, and guess what! Meiyi and I got the seat right in front, where the white board looks friggin HUMONGOUS! :OOO But at least, this will make us pay attention during lessons. Hmm.
So yeah, after school, went to have lunch at Cafe Cartel with Cherine, Claudia and Alicia. It is the most unpleasant meal I had, cus we were practically gobbling down our food so as to make it in time for some briefing back at school (of which we were still late in the end... =.-).
Okay, dance.
You know, i'm really sick and tired of telling people the same thing, over and over again: "MORE ENERGY", "SMILE", "SHARPER STEPS", "DON'T LOOK DOWN", "DON'T LOOK AT EACH OTHER", yadda yadda. It's like, they don't even TRY to make the effort to change and/pr improve. Okay, so maybe they don't know where they've done wrong. But when we try to help correct their steps, they freaking don't even look like they care. And please, do not give me the red puffy eyes. I've had enough of that trick.
What I can say is that, if you guys aren't at all keen, or interested in dancing, and only joined for the sake of getting a CCA, then quit. You're just wasting everybody's time, effort, and money. You guys are dancing as though someone is putting you a knife to your throat. The word, is RELUCTANT, FYI. We're all working as a whole dance team. And because of the few of you who don't give a damn, everyone's effort and hard work is almost as good as nothing. The whole item is still going down. And to think you guys still have the cheek to negotiate and argue back when we ask you to practice more. Seriously, you're NOT perfect. No one is. If you're being warned or reprimanded by any of us, it means you deserve it. Like hell, we aren't a bunch of crazy no-life bitches trying to make life difficult. We are all trying to keep our cool, and not lose our temper or anything. But at the rate you guys are going, things aren't gonna be very nice for long.
I have only one last bloody nerve, and you guys are getting on it.
What you guys need, is a seriously-needed freaking attitude adjustment.
Do some self-reflection. You know who you are.
Trust me, that has been bugging me the whole evening like an itch.
Damn, i feel so much better now letting it all out. Like as if i've scratched it.
So yeah, piano.
I feel really bad, cus i didn't practice a single thing Mrs Chua asked me to. And she was clearly disappointed. But i just seriously can't find the time... My Grade 7 exam will be in September, and my pieces are freaking horrible and monotonous. Great. JUST GREAT.
By the end of piano, i feel so freaking exhausted, i took a cab home. (Man, trust me, it's super good to have a card anywhere you go. You can buy ANYTHING. Even pay for cab fares!) And then, i slept all the way till now.. Apparently, i gave Mom a shock, she thought i was either sick or unhappy, and thus my dramatic arrival home. =.-
I don't have the energy or mood to do anything now. I just want everything to be put on hold... till i'm feeling up to it again. Everyday is just zooming past without me even knowing what's going on. People coming and going, work being piled higher and higher and higher.... i can feel the stress kicking in already, when nothing has officially begun. And this is only the 2nd of January. I know positive thinking is really important in life, you know, all that 'see the silver lining in every cloud' crap. But honestly, some things really aren't meant to have silver linings, so what's there to see?
One thing is for sure: I can't think positive now, my brain is jammed up to the max, I'm tired physically and mentally, I am not a happy person currently.
Okay, that was four things.
What I need is a.... a.... a beach. And a nice guy. And a glass of cold water. And a fluffy pillow. And a tub of b&j ice-cream. "Lying at a beach, lying on a nice guy with a fluffy pillow (staring into the sky, probably), drink a glass of cold water, and watching the ice-cream melt (Yeah, right)". Damn, that's what i call LIFE. :)
I'm not feeling very right now. I think i feel a fever coming up (please NO. Camp's just on Monday yoh! Gosh, you gotta be serious....), and i'm currently having muscle cramps AGAIN. Urgh, out comes the fugly-looking white smelly stickers..... =.=
Tomorrow's the CCA orientation. And i gotta go to school early to move some tables and chairs. Thank goodness Gary and company are willing to come early tomorrow to help out too. Thanks a million guys, and sorry for the last minute notice /= Everything had better go fine tomorrow. But then on second thoughts, even if it does crap up, who cares? Don't misunderstand. I'm just trying to keep an open mind here. What must be done is done, we had our practice and words of advice. So now it's only up to the individuals to decide whether they wanna give their best, or not; to make it a success, or not. And besides, if people are really interested to join the dance club, they won't just judge us based on one measly performance, successful or not. They'll just join us all the same.
Hopefully, things will take a turn for the better. And by things, i mean everything.
One thing i've learned: Life's setbacks are harder to take when you don't know any swear words.
p/s, sometimes when i use the word 'freaking', i actually mean the OTHER F-word. & sometimes, just sometimes, i really wanna use the word 'Bloody' and literally type it down. But then when i read back, i find myself changing it to 'Freaking'.
So now you know, 'freaking' is MY way of censoring bad words.
And trust me, you won't wanna know what kind of bad words.
Ciao.
Said night-night world @ 10:32 PM